If you’ve been considering making a big decision that scares you, this is your sign to do it. Take that leap of faith that you feel deep inside could really change you and your life.
I’ve recently decided to take the leap of faith and quit my job. I work at a school so I have two months left of the school year, but the decision itself was scary to admit because I know that quitting would mean a lot of fucking change in my life.
This post is all about having the courage to take a leap of faith that you know deep inside you should take.
I want more time to do what I love.
Ever since I was 18 I’ve been working in the school environment and I’m going to be 25 this summer. Quitting would mean that I’m going to start living a really different life than I’ve been living for years.
Because my next job isn’t going to be in the same field. I want something new with a more flexible/different schedule. I value my time so much more now that I realize time is really one of the most valuable things in life that we never get back.
I want more time to do what I love. To write. To dance. See the world. I want a work life balance where my life isn’t mostly spent at work or thinking of work.
I had decided to work another year at my current job because then I’d be able to see my students grow and graduate middle school. But it’s starting to feel like I can’t even do another year.
It’s time to say goodbye to this career path.
I love kids and helping them, but this job in particular doesn’t exactly align with my passions and to be fucking honest… middle schoolers can be real assholes. I love them but damn, I don’t think I like my role enough to deal with it another year.
I’ve learned a lot from this job. I don’t regret taking this job and I’m grateful to have experienced working with middle schoolers. I like the work environment and my coworkers. I’ve built a relationship with many students but, I’ve got to make this decision for myself. I don’t know if the kids would even care that much if I’m gone tbh. I think a few will.
Knowing that I’ve made an impact on atleast one kid is enough for me. I think I’ve served my time helping kids and now it’s time for something new. To fulfill my creative passions and dreams.
Anyways, back to what I was saying. Quitting would mean I would have to find a new job and a job that pays enough to allow me to afford moving out. Quitting means telling my parents and seeing their reactions and concern. My family will probably question my decisions and ask me of my plans. But it’s my life and I can’t be stuck on other people’s opinions.
I’ve changed.
I’ve changed a lot as a person and what I used to want out of life has changed. I never gave my creative passions a chance to be something more and always focused on school.
I don’t want a 9-5. I crave freedom of schedule so much more. I don’t see myself living a Mon-Friday 8 hr shift for the rest of my life, I just can’t fathom it. I’m a free spirit and I dont want to live a conventional lifestyle.
I’m having to adapt to this new version of me. It’s a hit to my ego to be this person that’s “lost” and unclear with my career path. I used to spend a lot of time researching different careers and made sure to have a plan. I spent my college years focusing on good grades and working a job that was in my field.
Now my lifestyle goals are so different and I’m left with little clarity. Now I wish I explored more interests and tapped into my creativity earlier.
I guess I’m having a bit of a quarter life crisis and I’m trying my best to surrender to the unknown. It’s scary but I got to take this leap of faith.
I feel like quitting my job is the best thing I could do because it just feels like a hindrance. Takes up too much of my day and has me in this routine that I don’t want to be in.
Once I had made the decision, more and more reasons came up to affirm it. Though I have fears of making the wrong decision, I really don’t think I am. I’m just afraid of totally changing up my daily routine that I’ve had since I got out of highschool.
Have courage and take a leap of faith.
Yes I’m scared of not finding a better paying job. Or finding a job at all. But I trust everything is working out in my favor. I don’t always fully trust tbh because uncertainty is very scary but it’s up to me to close this door to allow others to open.
So if you’re in a similar situation, know that I totally get your fears and worries. If I can do this, so can you. We have the power to change our reality.