Here is something I had written back in early December 2023. I had decided to take a break from writing and reevaluate my intentions with this blog. This post shows how I was feeling about life at the moment. Filled with uncertainty yet, optimistic.
It’s been a little over a month since this post and I already have a little bit more clarity. I am still in the same place, but now I am taking action and feel even more optimistic. Trusting the process. Believing that eveything is working out in my favor.
Life at the moment…
I feel a shift in my life happening. Not sure what exactly. Not a negative or positive one. Just a shift in perspective.
This blog may change to a more personal one, and it might become a private one for myself. I’m not making any decisions right now.
That’s where I’m at. Not knowing. Not deciding. Instead being patient and accepting the unknown. Being okay with not knowing.
Trusting that I have the time to explore new interests, careers, passions. Trusting that everything will work out for me.
I feel like future me is telling me to chill out.
Stop worrying. Stop trying to have it all figured out. So despite my desire to know my passion, know my purpose. I’m going to listen to that voice and chill.
I’m going to put my attention on my life right now. On my blessings and how good I have it. I’m not where I want to be but that doesn’t make my current life less than.
I’m going to continue exploring my interests and creativity. Focusing on myself and my routine. I’m going to continue pouring into myself, friends and family.
~ Trusting the process ~
As I’m writing this, I’m laying on a bed sheet at the park. Laying back and using my arm as support while I type this on my phone. I came here to get inspiration to write since lately I haven’t felt inspired or motivated to write for my blog.
Before I started writing, I was just sitting enjoying the heat of the sun on my back. I see an orange butterfly fluttering around near me and it lands on my bed sheet and stays there. It begins to fly again and comes back and lands closer behind me. I swear it was looking straight at me. I took a finger out thinking maybe it will land on my finger but it flies away and then quickly comes back. It landed on my bed sheet and it stayed there, sun bathing with it’s beautiful orange wings facing the setting sun. The butterfly was there for a good 5 minutes, slowing opening and closing its wings. It was a beautiful moment. I took it as a good omen. I don’t know what it means but it’s definitely a good sign.
Surrendering to the unknown. Accepting that I don’t have a clear plan. Opening myself up to different possibilites. Trusting the process. That’s the theme for my life at the moment.